Why can I not follow You now?

Anonymous: What's God been doing in your life lately? :)

God has definitely been working! Little things He does make me stand in awe of who He is and the wonderful plan that He has for my life.

For example: Yesterday I went back to work at a humanitarian organization where I intern for the first time since the summer, and being back made me want to be finished with school and ready to start my career serving the least and fighting for the rights of orphans.

As much as I love college, sometimes it feels like I’m standing by, studying for things that don’t matter as much as the professors pretend they do, and having a lot of fun until I graduate.  When I’m out of school, I will be able to focus completely and put my all into fulfilling James 1:27. So yesterday, for a little while, I was wishing I could just graduate early, leave my ministry behind at my university for others to continue, and pursue fully the mission for which I have the biggest passion: humanitarian work.

I’ve been reading “My Utmost for His Highest” by Oswald Chambers each day, and here is a quote from yesterday’s passage:

“Why can I not follow You now?”

Peter said to Him, “Lord, why can I not follow You now?” (John 13:37).

There are times when you can’t understand why you cannot do what you want to do.  When God brings a time of waiting, and appears to be unresponsive, don’t fill it with busyness, just wait.  The time of waiting may come to teach you the meaning of sanctification-to be set apart from sin and made holy-or it may come after the process of sanctification has begun to teach you what service means.  Never run before God gives you His direction.

Isn’t that amazing?  Exactly what I needed to read.

God is definitely teaching me and growing in me whether I’m in my hometown doing what I want to do with my life someday or if I’m in my university serving freshmen and loving on fellow college students.  Sometimes I just need to be reminded to be patient.